Dear Reader,
If you are here, I already know two things about you:
1. You are probably reading this because you clicked on the link in my update letter, a post on Facebook, or because you subscribe to this blog. For any of those reasons, I am so thankful that you are a part of my life enough to be on any of those lists.
2. You took the time to actually come to this dusty old thing to see what I have to say! Again, thank you.
This leads me to the point of my post: why do I even bother continuing to blog and trying to write update letters? It is clearly not my passion or my gifting. It is probably at least as frustrating to each of you as it is difficult for me to maintain. I get tired of hearing my own voice saying, "I'll try again;" seeing my own fingers type, "this time it will stick." I groan inwardly as I hear and see those words, knowing that I have said them so many times before. As I write this, I think, "why am I starting this again?" and "why not just give up?"
One reason that I don't give up is because this is really a great way of communicating. We live in a time where we can be very interconnected across the world (even if it implies a greater physical distance). I have dear friends with whom I would not be able to communicate were it not for technology. I thank God for the ability to remain connected, and I want to strive to make the most of those means, even if it is a struggle for me.
Y'all matter to me! That's why I keep trying to post. :-)
Secondly, I try because the act of "trying" matters in and of itself. It is valuable to keep working at important habits, even if we keep failing. Does it matter that an alcoholic tries to stop drinking, even if she fails? Does it matter if a child keeps trying to improve in math, even if it doesn't come naturally to him? Does it matter that overweight people try to eat healthfully and exercise even if they have bad days once in a while? Wouldn't it be better for these all people if they just stopped trying? Obviously it's too hard for them. It's probably discouraging to keep trying and failing. They should just admit defeat. NO! We would never say that. Because trying is worth it! It strengthens our character, shows concern for others, and brings glory to God.
That's why I keep trying.
